What Will Be Your Le(o)gacy?
What WILL people think of you, indeed.
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Now I speak directly to you.
I intend on this being the last time I write about you directly. I find that as each day wakes and drifts into night, you fade into a distant memory. But those days brew a stronger potion for you. May your daily breakthrough of reflections teach you a lesson.
You wrote to me, December 16th, 2018. "What will my legacy be? How will people think of me? How will my children think of me?"
Do you want to know what your legacy is going to be? You're going to need to do some reflection. Hint: You can't have your only positive attribute be that you were a decent fuck.
Here's what your legacy will be:
Deceit- You cannot tell the truth. Sometimes you attempt you, but you end up telling half truths peppered with inaccuracies. You are deceitful, Leo. You are deceitful by design.
Liar- There were dozens of times that I told you I knew something was going on with you. I asked you if there was someone else. You said no. That has been confirmed that you were indeed with another (at least one) woman while you had me fooled thinking that I was the only one. I denied and denied my intuition, while I believed you. You lied knowing that I would drop you if I found out the truth.
Weak - You are incredibly weak. You won't face the hard things in life. Instead of trying, you run. You manufacture justifications of your actions by finding faults in your girlfriends. Minor faults. Things that were beyond their control. You took these things, exploited them, and made it your justification to cheat. You then make that your reason to run. You run from relationship to relationship because you are weak and can't be alone.
Narcissistic- You are completely self absorbed. You make everything about you, even when the person in front of you is dying. You take when you ought not take. You steal, when there's nothing left to give. I'd link you to examples of narcissism, but you and me both know this is true.
Jealousy - You are so incredibly jealous. You 're jealous because you are weak, and self doubting. You are scared that you don't add up to others. And you're correct; you don't.
When people look back and think about you, only the few that barely scratch that superficial surface may think well of you. Unfortunately, you don't like to get close enough to people to become friends. You get close enough to exploit their weaknesses, and prey upon them to use at your advantage. You do this more often than not. So many people see this. So many people have suffered this because of you.
This is what your legacy is. This is the watered down easy to digest version of it anyways. You can't take responsibility for any of your shit. You don't hold yourself accountable, and you constantly blame others for your downfall. Own your fucking shit. Grow the fuck up. Be an adult. Right your wrongs. Eat crow. Bake yourself a fat humble pie and choke it all down.
Here's your last piece of "Kali homework" that I'll leave for you. Write this, then make those necessary life adjustments, son.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/can-t-we-all-just-get-along/201709/have-you-written-your-obituary
Liar- There were dozens of times that I told you I knew something was going on with you. I asked you if there was someone else. You said no. That has been confirmed that you were indeed with another (at least one) woman while you had me fooled thinking that I was the only one. I denied and denied my intuition, while I believed you. You lied knowing that I would drop you if I found out the truth.
Weak - You are incredibly weak. You won't face the hard things in life. Instead of trying, you run. You manufacture justifications of your actions by finding faults in your girlfriends. Minor faults. Things that were beyond their control. You took these things, exploited them, and made it your justification to cheat. You then make that your reason to run. You run from relationship to relationship because you are weak and can't be alone.
Narcissistic- You are completely self absorbed. You make everything about you, even when the person in front of you is dying. You take when you ought not take. You steal, when there's nothing left to give. I'd link you to examples of narcissism, but you and me both know this is true.
Jealousy - You are so incredibly jealous. You 're jealous because you are weak, and self doubting. You are scared that you don't add up to others. And you're correct; you don't.
When people look back and think about you, only the few that barely scratch that superficial surface may think well of you. Unfortunately, you don't like to get close enough to people to become friends. You get close enough to exploit their weaknesses, and prey upon them to use at your advantage. You do this more often than not. So many people see this. So many people have suffered this because of you.
This is what your legacy is. This is the watered down easy to digest version of it anyways. You can't take responsibility for any of your shit. You don't hold yourself accountable, and you constantly blame others for your downfall. Own your fucking shit. Grow the fuck up. Be an adult. Right your wrongs. Eat crow. Bake yourself a fat humble pie and choke it all down.
STOP FUCKING HURTING PEOPLE.
Here's your last piece of "Kali homework" that I'll leave for you. Write this, then make those necessary life adjustments, son.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/can-t-we-all-just-get-along/201709/have-you-written-your-obituary
Wasting (wasted) Time.
Yes. Yes. 100 times yes.
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