This is ... 2020

Well, this year has brought some new, half unexpected changes. Random neurotic 'ism' of biting the insides of my cheeks has mysteriously stopped, my ability to keep to a planner (shocked? don't be) has increased, but most importantly, big steps (for me) have been taken.

First, we found a cheaper and bigger, more convenient apartment in town. We are in the process of moving now, slowly but surely. It may take two weeks, but it will be done.

Second, I applied to grad school. I won't say much for now, but it does feel good to potentially do something I've only dreamt of before. I'll keep that bit hush hush for now. I don't want to jinx it.

I didn't expect big things to happen, but they did. I suppose big things happen when you least expect them. I'm gonna maintain a cautiously optimistic for now. I just wrote about small goals and breaking goals into bite size chunks, and here I am doing this shit. I guess sometimes I'm a hypocrite, and sometimes shit just happens.

I won't be sad leaving our current apartment. It served its purpose, and for that I'll be grateful, but hot damn, that's where it stops. Being centrally located will be a breath of fresh air. I haven't had that since living down south.

I was going to finish this up with being on the optimistic side, but I can't. I just found out another friend was taken by suicide. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Fuck you guys.

My heart hurts.

xoxo